Skywaylane

2012-02-15T12:29:00.000+08:00

i feel like i don't belong.
like when i'm out, working or with friends, or just at home.
like i don't have a sense of belonging.
my thoughts are so wild that my mental capacity isn't enough to contain everything.
practically in a mess.

i'm so tired, like physically and emotionally.
i don't feel like thinking about anything. i don't know what to do or what to say.

Valentine's Day

2012-02-14T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day girls!

Hope we'll stay in contact like forever until we get married and have kids and our kids will form another clique.
LOL WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT.
I MISS YOU ALL. MUACKS

2012-02-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

i hope we last forever. happy V's day.

2012-02-10T02:13:00.001+08:00

fuck everything fuck over thinking. just fuck everything i'm so bloody tired and i want to fucking run away from everybody

2012-02-09T11:54:00.001+08:00

dont really have the mood energy and time to blog since i am working everyday every week.
god bless my body and visit me on tumblr if you know my url. ^^.
good luck~

2012-02-06T13:36:00.000+08:00

what should i do.what should i do.what should i do.what should i do.what should i do.i want to run away from everythingi want to start overi hate myselfi hate myselfi hate myself

ugly truth or pretty lies?

2012-02-05T00:20:00.002+08:00

I have been thinking about this issue for awhile.
Sometimes I see quotes like ' I would rather you tell me the truth than lie to me just to make me feel better'
Probably that I would say when I found out the truth by MYSELF.
But currently I'm in situation that I'm really hurt by the ugly truth.
So hurt that I retreated back into my room in the middle of my drama.
Tears just flowed down uncontrollably.
Then I told myself, I rather he didn't say the truth.

Dear readers, would you prefer an ugly truth over pretty lies?

I guess I'm just too weak to handle the truth.
Maybe sometimes, somethings are better left unspoken.
Currently in denial, as usual.

2012-02-02T12:17:00.000+08:00

I'll do a real post really soon.
because i'm currently exercising at home..
with this.

i have been jumping like a crazy woman in front of the computer. haha

2012-02-01T20:17:00.002+08:00

Naomi told me to watch this movie since last year.
finally watched it. ohmo.

me like this song

What i have been doing since yesterday

2012-02-01T15:50:00.002+08:00

I'm so grateful to this guy.

2012-02-01T02:25:00.001+08:00

2012-01-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

roger that.
I'm feeling very hurt now.
like really hurt.
i'm not a very good friend to all of my friends but i really tried my best by asking them out,texting them.
but i guess it's still not enough.
i am really very hurt now.
if you really don't want to go out with me, why don't you just tell me so that i won't make a fool out of myself by asking you the same question.
i tried my best by planning a outing but all you guys did was to ignore me, like literally ignore.
i'm totally cool with that because i neglected you guys.
but you all actually met up together without me. ouch, i'm really hurt.
i really dk what else to do besides letting this friendship drift apart.
perhaps because recently i have tons of time on my hands, that's why i can afford to think so much.
i'm really tired. i tried and now i really give up.

2012-01-27T21:14:00.001+08:00

sigh.
stop thinking...

2012-01-26T22:43:00.001+08:00

think calmly. think reasonably. don't start your overthinking.
stop the rubbish that you're thinking/
you're special. you're not like any other girls.
just calm down and don't start being grumpy
CALM THE F DOWN.
STOP ALL THIS.
GOD MAKE ALL THIS OVERTHINKING PROCESS STOP
TERMINATE IT....

GOAL: DO NOT QUARREL TONIGHT. I AM SPECIAL. YES I AM.

WTH.

edited.
Let's not see each other for a month. I'm totally cool with it.
GOD DAMN IT. I NEED TO BLOODY RANT AND BLOODY CONTROL MY THOUGHTS WTFFFFFFFFFF

2012-01-26T17:54:00.003+08:00

Birthday presents

2012-01-26T00:39:00.002+08:00

I'm a very very bad friend in terms of birthday presents because

i'm lazy
i gave up doing things half way

so yup, i came out with this idea.

When i'm older (or when i get a job if i get into a poly)

I'm going to buy a wide screen polaroid and bring it out to take a photo with the birthday girl/boy then i'll bring a marker along.

so i'm going to write happy __(inserts age) birthday! :).

sigh i'm such a terrible friend. But hey, i don't mind if you just wish me happy birthday

i'm happy with my life and all my necessities(food,shelter,phone,money) are covered by my parents.

hoho just got an idea what to give boyboy's on his birthday.

i'm so bored because i woke up at 4pm and i cant sleep right now. HOHOHO

25th of January

2012-01-25T22:40:00.001+08:00

Hey guys!
i have been staying at home as i'm too lazy to get changed, head out.
i forgot to mention that i watched a couple of movies last week!

Haha they are both nice to watch !

okay. summary of what i did today (my day was quite short because i woke up at 4pm. x.x)

toasted hashbrown
folded the clothes properly
googled on how to donate clothes to salvation army
did a few pages of diary
changed wallet (photos below)
watched alvin and the chipmunks 2.
checked out a few cameras that i'm interested in!!

my zara wallet xoxoxo.

and i'm interested in this four cameras..

Canon S100

Olympus XZ-1

Fujifilm X10

so yupp! i'll have to head down to the stores and check out this few cameras.

2012-01-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

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2012-01-23T21:08:00.002+08:00

i'm so depressed that i want to get drunk even though i know you dislike it.
but LOL, i don't even know if i can get drunk by drinking wine.. i know i'm stupid . -.-

2012-01-23T18:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. lol i'm so bored that i am camwhoring with the pathetic webcam.
i went out to bugis to pray and the crowd was ridiciously mad. something like this
gawd i swear i was going crazy with all the aunties pushing their elbows and elbowing people so that they will go through. HI IF YOU SAID EXCUSE ME, the whole place would have a better and friendlier atmosphere instead of you causing a bruise on my shoulder.

but inside i'm like

2012-01-23T02:49:00.001+08:00

I really dislike it when i see something that i really dislike.
like really dislike to see, because that's the moment where my heart will ache so hard that it's difficult to breathe or even hold back my tears.
it's nights like this where i will literally do this in my room, trying to hug whatever pillows/booster that is available to fill up the emptiness throughout my body. i just lost the ability to express my thoughts
I lost the ability to even think reasonably.
i'm really a possessive person. i hate to share things since young.

nevermind i'll get over it

Happy CNY eve!

2012-01-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

Hey everybody!
sorry i haven't been posting a lot recently because i was away from the computer (*sense of accomplishment!)

ANYWAY! follow me on twitter! @iaintyours
Formspring me any questions that you're curious etc etc.
i'll put up some photos i took over the 7 days of CNY if i have the chance.
i have yet to plan out my outfit but i guess it'll be red & black because it's my 2012lucky color?
HAHA.

I have to be a vegetarian from now till tomorrow's 12pm..
on a bright side , i'll put on my retainers (which i'm suppose to put for all day except when i'm eating & brushing my teeth) that i didn't put for 123456789 days.

water diet
nice teeth

on the bad side.. i can't munch on any CNY goodies.

AND. everybody play 'WETOPIA!' on facebook!

WHY? : because instead of earning coins, you enjoy joy (the red heart shapes)

once you have 100 joys , you'll give any project that you like. for example US Homeless Children Care. it will translate to real money & fund the charity!

formspring.me

2012-01-22T22:11:00.001+08:00

Ask anything! http://www.formspring.me/chiaee

2012-01-20T00:11:00.001+08:00

totally made my day

2012-01-19T19:20:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling super unhappy, grumpy, rage. all the negative vocabulary that you can think of.

nothing to blog about today..
dont feel like blogging because my mind is blank.
less complain, more work.
less talk, more effort.

步步惊心

2012-01-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

hi everybody! sorry for short updates etc etc.
i'm totally hocked up in this drama..
I watched like 16episodes(& still watching) now from morning till 10pm.
OMG, i always love history stories and after watching this show, i have a total different view on Kang Xi.
i even went to stalk the whole family tree on google, without the help of wikipedia.
*proud of myself.
it's the first drama that both my parents and I are interested in.
HEHE, but apparently my mother says that it's super draggy. oopsy, different opinions!
okay will blog more after i watch finish my 40episode. LOVE YOU READERS &
YELLOW BOY YOU BETTER READ MY BLOG AH!

2012-01-18T12:39:00.001+08:00

I'm Elmo and I Know It

One Direction.

2012-01-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

I admire Liam Payne !
I realized he is always the one who sings first in most of the songs.
my favourite performance of theirs on X factor is

But i like all of them, they are all unique in their own way

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2012-01-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

A happy day shopping with the girls & i went out with Mandy & Daisy.
We went to OM (WHICH WAS CLOSED..)
Then we headed to cineleisure, editor's market.
OMG THE CLOTHES THERE R SUPER NICE BUT TOO MATURE FOR ME :(
i wanted long sleeves but being super short (which means short limbs) the sleeves are too long. T.T
nevermind, next time we'll go in groups of 3,5,15. & i'm impressed by the promotion of editor's market!!

2012-01-16T01:12:00.000+08:00

gonna go out with daisyz tmr to shop till i drop.

not really , because i'm dang broke and i think i should go and find another job.

I'M SO DANG BROKE.

anyway , i guess i'll do something productive in this week

go back to MF & help out in sec 1 selection
pack my room & help my mum to vacuum & mop the house
meet up with Sean because he's so dang busy
shop with daisy
go CNY visiting with excos?
i'll add more tomorrow.

Happy unofficial 36months to you

2012-01-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

Nah, i know we both dislike it when people know about the details in our relationship, so i'll just keep it short and sweet.
I actually can't believe that 3 years just passed. Although every single time i started arguing with you, you always give in.

Thank you for not using a single vulgar word on me (up till now) even though you were extremely disappointed/furious.
Just thank you for accepting me as a girl who is constantly insecure and pms-ing. I'll write you a letter.
See you soon.

Loving you always,
Chia Ee

2012-01-13T22:11:00.001+08:00

currently this is what i'm doing while waiting for boyboy to end his work.

2012-01-13T14:48:00.001+08:00

Stove + oven combined. or maybe just oven..
One of my guilty pleasure is to bake chocolate chip cookies & chocolate chip muffins.
HOHOHO, and one day if my parents decided that i'm mature enough not to cause a mess in the kitchen, i may start baking for my friend's birthday cake etc. HOHOHO.

2012-01-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

Another resolution : go to library and borrow some book that will brush up my english.
WILL NEVER LET ENGLISH GET IN MY F***ING WAY EVER AGAIN

2012-01-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

To Kimberly

Hey my dear girl.
Do not worry about O's because you still have 9months!
As long as you feel like you really pushed and did your best, you deserve those results.
I hope you won't be affected by my lousy results!
Do approach me when you're feeling down etc, you have my support and i'm sure you'll do well in O's.
Or be like one of my friend Jordan Puah/ Xin Yi, they just planned of going to a certain course in Poly & concentrated on their relevant subjects, which they did quite well.
whatever it is , you have my support and i love you!
takecares

2012-01-11T21:45:00.001+08:00

Really appreciate the little things you did to me.
Like immediately you bought the gifts for me.
oopsy sound like a demanding bitch but HOHO.
anyway the thought of getting into a course without a friend really suck, the thought of not getting into the same school sucked even more.
BUT DAMN

2012-01-10T11:22:00.002+08:00

Hey everybody.

Yesterday i received my results and it was way below my expectations, yet i did not cry.

I'm actually wondering why i didn't cry, probably because i really gave my best.

Every time i do well in school exams but when it comes to major exams, i just screw it up.

it's always like this.

I still can qualify for SRJC, but idk if i should go JC now or Poly.

sigh.

2012-01-09T21:18:00.001+08:00

feels like PSLE all over again.

2012-01-08T17:13:00.000+08:00

Eventually we get tired of giving.
Giving every thing that you have , time, money, effort, tears, heart, energy.
Yet you feel like you don't receive anything at all.
Sometimes i'll stop and ask 'Why should i continue giving?'
I couldn't find the answer and i continued giving anyway.

But i'm getting tired.

A walk down the memory lane..

2012-01-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

I don't think it's people that changes, it is the feeling that the people felt made the people change.
So in conclusion, it's feelings that changes.

ANYWAY.
when i was younger.. i had obsessions with a couple of cartoons and kids central + channel 8 show on sunday mornings

POWERPUFF GIRLS. ( i used to think i was like all girly and a crybaby like bubbles so i liked her. But since blossom represents pink... er... bye bubbles. i still love the three of them anyway!)

Next was the Winx club when i was.. Primary 4 to 5? I am so crazy over that i bought the monthly magazine even though my allowance was like $2 per day!

hurhur , and not to forget that i used to mimic their actions and act like i'm a winx(is that how it's call?) too. LOL. what was i thinking..

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2012-01-06T21:50:00.001+08:00

So get out, get out, get out of my head
And fall into my arms instead

I'm sick.
Met up with my lovely girls to make a trip down to the Polys.
Really appreciated that they made changes to the original schedule as i wanted to visit SP.
went home shortly because i was feeling so horrible like i just want to sleep forever.
I knocked out for 3hours and i'm up now.
Still feeling horrible.
Yet to eat any food nor bathed.
Thinking whether i should go to ballet tomorrow since i missed today's lesson.
to add on, my menstruation decided to give me extra problems today.
but i was so tired to even think of the stupid blood flowing out of the pad onto the bed etc etc.
Have not be doing any over thinking, i suppose over thinking really creates more unnecessary problems.

4I BBQ 2012

2012-01-06T01:00:00.001+08:00

Even though not a lot of people made it, i'm still glad that the remaining 4I people made everything so dang awesome.
Met shar at 2pm to shop around today, then we decided to pop by to visit Vir, then we headed around and ended up buying our snacks at far east plaza.
I bought a black pants( FINALLY AFTER 4 YEARS) and she bought a dress.
I have yet to buy my chinese new year clothes but i think that i'm just gonna make do with the clothes bought in aussie, the J & M shoes bought at TLTSN and pants i bought today.
let's just see how my mum's gonna nag at me.
Met with Sheng, You Chen & Daisy & headed down to bedok.
We waited for 401 while chatting for arnd 20 minutes?
THEN.. we realize it's not operating today. GAWD...
ended up walking from E to C ( thank god SL camp trained us well..)
HTHT with D, S & S.
Went home and caught the last trains! lady luck's with me today.

2012-01-05T11:54:00.001+08:00

why am i not surprised.
sometimes i really wish that things that i predicted won't come true, but they often happen.
sigh.

2012-01-05T00:32:00.005+08:00

Dont wanna retweet to spam ppl so i'm gonna blog.

I'm a horoscope type of person. Seems like Virgo is the worse horoscope according to internet...

There are times when a virgo needs to stop worrying. You have done your best and now it is time to let go.
If one thing goes wrong in a Virgo's plan we feel defeated.
If a Virgo thinks you're mad at them for a dumb reason they will let you stay mad.
Virgo's always end up knowing more than we really want to.
Virgos have zero tolerance. You could make one mistake and no matter what they'll never like you.
Virgos are more likely to believe something negative over something positive.
What someone does doesn't affect a Virgo as much as it is why they did it.
A Virgo won't stop thinking about something until its resolved.
Virgos will spend forever trying to find out what someone's motives are.
Virgos don't do things for just anyone, it has to be someone or something we care about.
Virgos hate to see someone not appreciate what they have.
Virgos quietly study the people around them.
A Virgo will let the smallest thing make or break their day.
A Virgo can tell exactly what your intentions are as soon as you start talking.
A Virgo will never overlook the same "mistake" twice.
Just saying sorry won't make it alright for a Virgo.
Virgos will normally give out some type of warning before they explode.
Every Virgo gets to a point where they don't even expect things from people.
Virgos are genuinely nice people, we just get annoyed easily.
Virgos are very intuitive, we know when something's going on.
Virgos don't mind doing things for other people, you just have to ask the right way.
Virgos don't waste their time with fake friendships. They can tell if someone is genuine and if they're not the Virgo will keep it moving.
A Virgo won't feel the need to tell you what you did wrong. We won't talk to you till you figure it out, and are remorseful.
A Virgo will forgive for a "mistake" once. If you do it again it's a choice, and things will most likely never be the same.
A Virgo will not force someone to stay in a friendship or relationship they don't want to be in.

Source : @VirgoSeason

2012-01-05T00:11:00.001+08:00

Really dread to be on pointe now because god knows when mdm fung decides to let us do the turn in the middle of the dance studio.
Besides that , my stupid left big toe is still having it's menstruation, not to mention that someone made it bleed even more on one day of my work.
Fridays and Saturdays are for ballet now, still deciding if i should continue CSTD and go for the examination because RAD seems to be more fun.
On a side note, i would love to learn a piano which a wonderful friend of mine volunteered to teach me for free.

There's class BBQ tomorrow and i'm going to enjoy myself and let down all the negative thoughts.
Gonna meet up with Sharlene for some retail therapy.

I have been thinking about my future life.
Everybody's gonna be busy with their own work, sometimes we'll only have time for dinner after work.
Idk what my point is, but it probably would be better if we all just let go of the unhappiness that happened between our friendships and cherish the short time we had with each other. I suppose life's really too short for us to be hating each other.

2012-01-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

Mission Impossible 4.
I felt like my life is going to be shorten by 10 years because the effects & suspense of whole movie is so dang good. no wonder everybody kept saying that they will want to watch it again.

2012-01-03T23:06:00.001+08:00

2012 resolution

stop cursing f. just stop.

wanderlust

2012-01-02T15:21:00.001+08:00

i want to go

uss
www
ice skating
pooling
swimming pool
uss
uss
uss
uss
www
www
www
USS!

T.T.

1st Jan 2012

2012-01-01T23:38:00.001+08:00

2012 Resolution

Sigh, i have yet to do any resolution because i end up forgetting them & not doing them anyway..

Slow walkers

2012-01-01T23:05:00.001+08:00

speaking of slow walkers.
I have been working for the past few days & i only had a pathetic 30 minutes to get all my business done.
Every single slow walker seems like a road block to me.
But I will only get annoyed at some group of slow walkers..

Couples walking slowly in the middle of the pathway where there is a two way human traffic flow
Aunties who saw me but continued to walk super slowly when i asked 'excuse me'
People fiddling with their electronics while walking. EXCUSE ME, AT LEAST MOVE TO THE SIDE & PLAY WITH YOUR ITOUCH/IPAD FOR ALL I CARE. worst still. they stop halfway when they can't see something clearly on the screen, which resulting in me banging into them & they staring at me like i stole their bag. WTF?

Done ranting.

2011-12-28T23:48:00.001+08:00

Hey everybody.
I'm too tired to blog much but do stay tune because i'm sure i will blog endlessly when i am not working, which is soon..

i don't hope for 2012 to be awesome, but just let everything say the same. same friends, same boy, same family.

went out with a bunch of awesome people today

2011-12-27T20:04:00.003+08:00

yeah, silly to think that you would never ask for a girl's number.
IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN HER, WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DM HER TO ASK HER TO TEXT YOU BECAUSE YOU LOST HER NUMBER.
DON'T NEED ANYMORE DRAMA. FUCK EVERYTHING. IDC IF I'M FUCKING UNREASONABLE OR THINKING TOO MUCH. JUD
GE ME ALL YOU WANT.doesn't mean that if i'm okay with it, i like it.BUT I AM FUCKING OKAY WITH YOU TEXTING YOUR FRIEND OR FRIEND , WTF AM I TALKING ABOUT,I'M GOING CRAZY

2011-12-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday at work.
I was sneezing non stop & i felt like 1.5litres of my mucus came out.
i used up the whole box of tissue & my nose is red.
but time flied.
Today i went back to school & saw sheng, yik loong & Ophelia.
played with them & went home.
oh, YL taught me how to dance the chorus of the boys.

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

Dear Readers,
How are you all doing ? I have been working my ass off from 1400 to 2300/2200 consecutively for a few days & i'm dead beat.
How was 2011's Christmas for all of you?
Mine was awesome and great. I spend my first few moments of Christmas in Somerset with double S-es & we got snow sprayed by banglas , a group of boys scolded them ' F you Niggas' & we were like F here & there too because we were caught by surprised.
I paid 8.20 for a meal of macdonalds which i eventually puked them out at 3.20AM.
When i was walking(running should be a better word) back to somerset mrt , i had to cross the road to go to cineleisure , where all the snow spray are sprayed around.
We embarked on our Mission Impossible I , getting to the train without getting sprayed.
& result was...
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. wahha, Thank god the traffic lights were being kind to us.
Went home & chatted on the phone with Sean for awhile before i headed to sleep.
25th December 2011, i worked from 2pm to 10pm.
& Mr Vicknesh & Mr Nara came to visit me with presents <33333 ( will post pictures of the cute snow man & titbits!!)
Some of the customers came back & gave me presents . ^^.
So afterall, work wasn't THAT BAD after all!

better off alone

2011-12-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

i'm lost. i'm lost in my own thoughts.
i need somebody to guide me.
i swear to god that i'm going crazy , my brother's gonna tell my mother that i'm crying.
why cant he just grow up & ignore me.
i'm really upset. like really upset.
perhaps they just hate me that's why they didn't ask me out.
i'm acting like a kid.
i have nobody to talk to about my issues. i'm a messed up kid.
i'm a kid.
why do i need friends
why do i need a boyfriend
why do i feel like the solitude is killing me from inside out.

goes back to my blog title. better.off.alone.
at least i won't feel left out.

2011-12-23T01:59:00.001+08:00

BITCHES

2011-12-23T00:40:00.001+08:00

I feel like a fool.
I feel like a fucking retarded for believing.
I feel like i'm stupid enough to think that i am ready to face all this bullshit again but i'm wrong.
I mess up .
I feel like just crawling up in a corner and sort out my feelings, but i'm too lost to even start sorting them out.
I don't know what to expect. I gave up expecting anything, because i figure out that low expectations leads to lower disappointment which eventually leads to lesser heart ache to take.
The last person that i would ever guard my heart against is you, yet i have to guard my heart against to you too.
I won't let you in anymore , don't take me for granted.

or should i just give in & forget + forgive again? What happens if we chose to leave this relationship.
Who will we end up with. just so many thoughts in my mind. make it stop. make it stop.

A day at LICK

2011-12-23T00:31:00.004+08:00

2011-12-21T13:39:00.000+08:00

I need to buy a new camera so badly!
I have asked Miss Chew about what brand and model of camera should i buy and she recommended me
Canon S95 and Canon G12
so! please help me out in choosing what model . :(.
Yesterday i met up with clau, naomi & keepin to head to LICK to spend our night away.
Took a lot of photos! & i got fatter . :(.
Life's pretty nice to me recently . I'm gonna head out to bring my relatives around & of course , buy presents for my dad & brother.
I bought some presents for my junior!! Gonna pass them their presents during orientation.
HOHO, i guess i'll just blend into the environment & maybe i can pass off as P6.

Hate shopping with my mum.

2011-12-17T14:59:00.002+08:00

Because she'll ..

complain about the price of the clothes
not pay for my shopping
complain about how much clothes i already had
complain about how hard it will be to wash the clothes i'm going to buy ( eg, knitted)

but i still love her anyway

Time check 1.48AM

2011-12-14T01:48:00.004+08:00

figured out that i should probably do a proper blog post.

Anybody still reading my pathetic blog?

#sigh.

BTW, I'm working at The Little Things She Needs.

Met a few people around my age & i'm being labelled as bubbly and cheerful or forever smiling.

Everybody's working & the chances to meet up is getting slimmer and slimmer.

Here i am trying to ask people when they are free and there they are just ignoring me.

WTF? okay, i am the one to be blamed for ignoring people every time. whatever.

I'm just so frigging tired after work. A tired woman is an angry woman.

Can't wait for January to come, besides the results day aka doomsday. Nah joke.

I met a new boy called Sean & he's really very sweet. ;)

Will blog about aussie & penang trip when i feel like it. LOL.

I suck as a blogger manzxc.

I want to pool. ok BYE if not sean gonna kill me when he see this.

OKAY I NEED TO MEET UP WITH MY CLIQUE WTF

2011-12-14T01:36:00.002+08:00

hmm, i guess it's only me that thinks that knowing how to write your friend's name in Chinese holds a special meaning.

2011-12-12T00:46:00.002+08:00

bring me back to perth

hmm.

people have been stalking me online, cause they search on google ' my name + blog ' .

lol... I DO THAT ALL THE TIME XD. do come back again and stalk me.

i really have no content to blog about. it's all about work.

i feel ugly. argh

Australia trip - Day 1

2011-12-03T09:32:00.002+08:00

Sigh, really bad at words.

Firstly, the 26 of us met at Changi airport, terminal 3 at around 9.30pm.

We checked in and headed for a round of shopping before getting into the airplane.

at 1.00AM, the plane took off hence everybody started to live in their own bubbles ( games/movie/music/sleep/camwhore)

Apparently i got bored of movie (my eye hurt like shit) and i stare of the window(yeah lucky me had a window seat!)

I saw zillion of stars, literally zillions. Didn't manage to take any photos of it :(.

But i'll make up with this..

and breakfast came! stir fried beehoon with chicken.

We touched down and met our tour guide slash bus driver slash super friendly guy, Jeff

First stop, Whistlers Chocolate Factory

we were greeted by tons of chocolate~

Then Kings Park! ( where we start to get annoyed by the stupid houseflies)

run duckyyy!!!

THEN WE CHECKED INTO METRO HOTEL. MAD AWESOME.

& we went sailing! at twilight! gosh the scenery is shiok x100000.

My most said two words back in australia is 'shiok only' more than 'f you' HAHA.

ate dinner and headed back to sleep in the hotel!

那些年

2011-12-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

又回到最初的起点
记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终於来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片
无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱著她

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
紧紧抱著你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
紧紧抱著你

crying buckets while listening to this song. so many memories just flashed pass.

2011-12-02T23:41:00.001+08:00

Holding hands might just be the cutest thing ever. It’s such an intimate gesture, yet innocent at the same time. When you feel their hand touching the palm of yours it’s like the entire world is at your fingertips at that moment. And even better, the first time two people ever hold hands, is precious. When the person nudges at your hand and eventually slides their fingers interlocking with yours and you feel your cheeks getting warm, turning a shade of rosy pink and your heart pounding like drums. When they grasp on so tight like it would be impossible to let you go. How their hand just seems to fit right into yours as if it was meant to be that way. So beautiful and satisfying with a rush of different emotions. And just with the knowledge that your hands are linked together makes your hearts even fonder and you can literally feel how close you are to each other.

2011-12-02T23:39:00.001+08:00

What i learnt from the Australia trip.

2011-11-30T09:52:00.004+08:00

A paragraph quoted from Mr Nara - Sometimes, you can't choose who you're grouped with. But you have to take the effort to be a team player, don't back out. Step out of your comfort zone, amazing things may happen.

At the moment, i woke up from my own stubbornness.

So what if i feel left out? That is what i feel, that's not the truth. Just because people didn't invite me to take photos with them, i feel left out.

But the truth is because i didn't take any effort to make new friends or join into the group.

Just because i'm afraid of failure.

There will be people who will do all they can just to make you feel left out, but why bother about them? All that matters is if you're happy.

They will eventually get tired of making fun of you, pinpointing you or planning out their next step to torture you.

Don't let those get you, block out the negative thoughts.

When they are so busy thinking of ways to torture you, they miss out the fun.

So be happy with whatever you're doing. Don't doubt your abilities.

Chins up and let's go! :D.

Time to update this little dead space.

2011-11-30T09:31:00.003+08:00

Life has been really great to me, and i'm really grateful to all the teachers who put in their effort to make Prom and the Australia trip come true.

Prom was really awesome, especially the dance floor, shall update some photos here yeah!

PROM

Woke up early and met Sheng for lunch,
cabbed down to Faye's parents salon( really thankful! Her mum did my hair and makeup! totally friendly)
while i was doing my hair, Xin cabbed down to find me!
cabbed down to the hotel, & halfway my heels broke. OMG, so nice of xinyi to accompany me run around the nearest shopping mall to get a pair of heels <333333
Prom started ! photography mode on.
party and slacked at starbucks with 2A'o9 till 3am and went to hotel to washup.
washed up, headed home.

that's all folks!!

2011-11-22T15:22:00.002+08:00

Best Prom ever.

Had so much fun with my clique and sharlene, wanyi, daomin,virginia and cheryl.

Everybody looked extremely pretty! :D.

although the MC damn bastard but salutes to his 4 language rap.

I wont be updating this space for a while, will be updating twitter more ofen.

Gonna pack for australia, hosue chores, visit dm at scoopz, farewell party, buy more clothes.

God, spent a hell lot of money.

2011-11-19T21:59:00.002+08:00

got hooked up to the songs during my work hours.

first day of work.

2011-11-16T23:47:00.005+08:00

tired i suppose, but not extreme.

throughout the whole day i felt lost because i couldn't touch my phone nor do i have a watch on my hand, shall wear one tomorrow and hunt for a new antique watch . :).

Met sheng during my one hour break.

been thinking a lot lately, i guess my over thinking is sucking up my energy.

it's like i'm so mentally drained but i kept thinking.

i would rather work than slack at home or go out shopping because my $ intake will be < $ output

which results to : decreasing trend in my bank.

to people whom i trusted,told them my weakness and they used my weakness against me : screw yourself.

and stfu about me being stupid to tell you my weakness, i trusted you.

long word post

2011-11-15T23:41:00.003+08:00

O's over. -inserts smiley faces x 1million times-

Spent monday at home to accompany mom as she's gonna go back to m'sia for a month.

which sums up to troublesome house chores like ironing, mopping, vacuuming, washing socks/clothes,hanging out clothes, keeping clothes for the remaining 29days.

Ah, boring stuffs aside, i'm done with O's . shall just cross my fingers for a good results.

Have been shopping with Sheng, Jikang Youchen, Shuyang today, we combed the whole bugis street & junction.

They went for job hunt while i'm happily shopping for my prom necklace.

It must be the lady luck who granted me a job.

Working not really for money, just to kill time :).

Prom's in 5 more days ? alright. will post tomorrow morning!

Shall wait for #foreversleeping to bath finish then i'll call him to chat. :)

2011-11-10T17:56:00.000+08:00

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

2011-11-06T12:03:00.003+08:00

To my dear friend D.

I have no idea if you'll pop by my blog or something.

But you're beautiful, why bother about what others think about your weight?

Society is a bitch, but hey, does that mean that people who don't fit in the category of 'perfect' or 'skinny' wouldn't be happy?

I know losing weight is a good thing because you appear to look nicer, but does your heart really feels better?

Even if you managed to slim down to like a 35kg , people will still pick on your flaws.

They don't care about how much you starved/how much your poor soul suffered.

Will you truly be happy if you found a man who only loves you because you're aesthetically pleasing?

My point is, don't slim down because you want others to stop commenting on your weight, because they wont.

Slimming down is okay, but please stop slimming down when you're at an acceptable weight, i don't wish your health to suffer.
You have friends who love you they way you are D, chin up and cheer up.

2011-11-05T22:17:00.003+08:00

What really sucks, is having to act like I'm damn cheerful and happy immediately after I cry, not mentioning about the times where I just felt like crying for hours.
I'm feel so horrible about everything. I feel ugly, unwanted, inferior. There are times where I just feel like hiding under my blanket and just not head out at all.
I'm so tired.
Tired of crying then I'll have to act like I'm happy and stay happy.
I don't have anyone to talk to about my problems.
People just judge you, I hate it, I rather just keep it to myself.
Here I am, blasting my loudspeaker to drown my own wailing soung.
I feel so terrible.
Nobody understands.
You don't care.
You just continued to act like nothing happened.
I hate to tell you anything now.
We'll just end up arguing and I feel even lonelier then ever. I feel like dying.
All I know I cry, what a fucking useless human being am I.
Why the fuck do I need emotions.
I feel so lonely. I feel empty.

2011-11-02T18:35:00.002+08:00

if i'm going to cry tonight, i'll just tell my parents it's regarding my O's.

I'm glad that it's going to be over because i'm just so tired.

Having second thoughts on getting into a JC.

I just want a space to talk about my feelings, i suppose i prefer blogging to facebook/twitter/tumblr, idk why i just prefer blogger.

This is my space, probably people are commenting on my thoughts, but at least , i wont get to know unless i did something horribly wrong.

I'm just chilling out, watching all the ' How it's Made ' and ' Myth buster' videos. pretty much interesting.

DISTRESS

2011-10-31T22:46:00.001+08:00

2011-10-27T23:22:00.001+08:00

2011-10-27T22:48:00.001+08:00

you know what really sucks.

seeing that you are able to laugh at somebody else's reply to your text than my " <3 " to yours.

fuck it.

2011-10-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

the list of my to-do list after O's getting longer!

BTW, i have a fair bit of assessment books and textbook to give away after my O's! if you want , tweet me @iaintyours or post a post on my wall alright!

let's go! I, will not let worrying of my results affect any of my performance.

as long as i do my best for every single paper, the results is secondary.

My parents told me that they know that i'd put in a lot of effort, so if i don't score as well as i expected, it's really alright. The most they'll just feed me for my life (OMG, what a fail kid).

anyway, Good luck to all my fellow school mates for tomorrow's emaths papers and the remaining papers!

Really appreciated those who sms-ed/tweet-ed/facebook me good luck etc.

Oh, and i got killed by english. I just hope that the bell curve can help me.

Alright! time to sleep ;)

GRADUTED!

2011-10-16T22:44:00.003+08:00

PEACE OUT. I HAVE GRADUATED FROM MFSS.

means NO MORE SCHOOL!!! END OF MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE.

Okay love everybody from 2A especially my clique and you.

Love everybody from 4I too!

LET'S STUDY HARD FOR O'S AND PARTY HARD

to do list after O's chem MCQ paper

chiong home at 9.15AM.
pack my messy room, throw all worksheets, clear my table, clean my room
throw the spoilt stuffs
mop the whole house
upgrade my phone plan to BB data plan
buy dslr (PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE)
wash my parent's car
sleep and watch movies at night (ANTM or Vamp Diaries)

CRAZY IDEAS : OH YEAH, i also want to buy a board(though i already have one in my room) and pins all my activities on it! so it's kinda like a calendar? HAHA, if this idea succeeds, i'll post it on my blog!

AND WTF AM I THINKING. O's aint over but all the activities that i wanna do are overwhelming my brain capacity!

I love you Kimberly! finally you knew how to hug me ah.

and your birthday present is still with me! will pass it to you after O's! i'm redoing another awesome one for you!!

PS : I MAY BE TAKING OUT MY BRACES TOMORROW!

2011-10-10T13:03:00.001+08:00

omfg . laughed like shit

late night thoughts

2011-10-08T21:23:00.004+08:00

Probably should be studying but here i am , in front of my desk top reminiscing about our past.

I miss hanging out with you, miss those late night talks.

Studying is depriving me from everything. TV dramas, Sims social, itouch games, social life, shopping.

I just miss the silly things that we used to do.

Like queuing behind an auntie with a truck load of groceries to be bought from NTUC and comparing who's estimating skills are better.

Walking from AMK hub to YCK mrt just to have some quality time alone and chat about our problems.

I really miss those.

2011-10-08T21:19:00.003+08:00

take a look at this..

Gawd, like seriously, i hope i won't get lost in a mrt station in future.
I can totally picture the scene of Singapore's train getting as packed as this..

oh wait.. it's already like this.

#rant

2011-10-06T22:47:00.002+08:00

literally pulling my hairs out.

I'm at the verge of breaking down and absolutely giving up on every single subject.

I am so afraid what if i don't even get an A in my results slip ( besides Chinese)

There no hope in my sciences and English language.

I mean.

Just look at the way i blog, there's no much hope a minimum of B3.

Damn it , i'm so vexed up,

Although i scored pretty alright for my SS this time , my confidence level is in a generally decreasing trend instead of an upwards.

My A1s are not strong A1s.

WTS. I got totally demoralized when Mrs Tan said that there's a change in focus of topics on SEQs = you'll have to memorize more chapters .

And i'm not even in acquaintanceship with Governance or whatever crap.

Lost track of what i'm suppose to say.

In a nutshell, i'm bloody stressed.

2011-10-04T10:53:00.001+08:00

O's is in less than a month's time.

totally not confident to score well for my english, probably a c6 would make me happy.

GOD, please just install some urgency into my cells or something.

Must watch!

2011-09-24T15:58:00.001+08:00