OMG save me from this emotional roller coaster. No joke when I have to survive the whole day with killer cramps that is trying to murder me alive. With emotions that are way out of control. One moment I feel like raging and just throw every single book I have at the wall another I'll jump on joy then just feel so sad and empty that I will break down. Oh lord idl what to do now. Like lost and I am having a massive headache. Guess I got tired of making thousands and zillion of decision today.

Chopped the lettuce and carrots and bought special K cereal. I want to led a healthy lifestyle.

I'm feel so depressed that I want to cry all night or just slit my wrist. What did I just said? Idk ignore me now. My hormones are just wayyy to out of my control. Do not worry because I promised people that I will never cut myself and I think that it is silly.
But it is just all these violent images that are in my mind now. Like when I was chopping the veggies, I imagined that the knife sliced my fingers etc. and I was shivering. Screwed up much. I want my mum.